September 20, 2010

I have a headache and it's thiiis big and it has Excedrin written all over it.

I have had an Excedrin headache since I was a teenager. I am now 40. I have this unique problem. Every time I eat something I get a headache. Lucky me. So after several doctors have told me to stop taking it I am finally really trying to do so. I pretty much have a headache all the time as I taper myself off of this fabulous pain killer. It does a good job but it is also hurting the rest of me in the process. My liver, my intestines and who knows what else. Why can't anything be easy and why can't anything be fair? I did not ask to have this strange food allergy. I didn't ask for my body to become dependent on this wonderful aspirin and caffeine filled tablet. It's just how it is and it kinda sucks. I am working hard at getting off of them though and my head is not amused. I have gone from 6-8 a day (told the doctor 5-6 a day) to 2 a day and I'm hoping to get to 1 a day next week and then hopefully none. This is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do and all while I'm worrying that there may be a tumor/mass growing inside of my abdomen. A fun as hell colonoscopy is scheduled for October 14th. The doctor thinks that maybe my large intestine is kinked or looped or whatever. Sounds like surgery to me. But I'm thinking if it's not that then I have something growing inside of me. I think it's been growing a while and I think it's getting big and that's why I'm feeling more and more uncomfortable. Now, to just get the doctors to believe me.

Oh and I have a liver update (my previous post). My liver is enlarged but not to the point that I need to have a biopsy. The doctor thinks it's my intestines instead that are causing me pain. This isn't cool either. I really don't know which is worse of the two evils. Or three evils since I think something is growing in there and causing it. It all sucks if you ask me.

Sigh.

September 16, 2010

Liver and onions... cause this just stinks!

Actually, no onions but I thought the title was cute. I just found out I have an enlarged liver. Kinda sucks. I'm really freaked out. I've been experiencing some discomfort for awhile (years) now and finally went to the doctor for it because it felt like it might be getting worse. Or at least more noticeable. After an ultrasound was done it was found that my liver is enlarged and fatty... like me. It's called NASH. I might have to have a liver biopsy. I'm really scared to have a biopsy. Overly frighted, want to run for the hills kinda scared. I am meeting with a liver specialist tomorrow. In the mean time I am eating better and trying to lose weight and tapering off my Excedrin addiction or dependency that I've had since I was a teen. I don't like taking so many everyday but when it's the only thing that helps and your only other alternative is to become a non-functioning vegetable sleeping in a dark room with a pounding headache... you take the Excedrin.

Wish me luck. I think I'm gonna need it. I am scared shit less for tomorrow's doctor appointment.