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The paperwork is insane and apparently never ending! Just when I think I've done everything I need to do and given them everything they have asked for... they need something else. I had NO idea buying a house would be this complicated. I knew it was a big deal and would require some credit checks and signatures but this is crazy... seriously crazy. Completely insane! I can't believe so many people have gone through this before us. It MUST be more difficult now after the whole mess with the banks giving anybody a loan. I can't believe it's always been this difficult. Not possible.

Luckily we are nearing the end. I think. I hope. We are going to go sign the final loan documents tomorrow night. I thought that was it but nope, there are still more hoops to jump through and more things to wait for. Seriously insane. But we do see the light at the end of the tunnel so this is encouraging.

And to think this is just the beginning of a long road that we couldn't wait to travel on. It is exciting and stressful and nerve wracking as hell. The fear of the unknown is killing me. But I must just jump in and believe that whatever happens is supposed to happen and that we are going to be ok. Change scares me. This is a super huge change with alot of decisions to make. After the house sale is final I will have to concentrate on selling the condo. I worry about this also. What if it takes a long time to sell? It really needs to happen within a few months for this to be somewhat manageable.

Until then, I will dream of our big house and how we plan to furnish it and landscape it and feel at home in it.