Stressed the F out!

Life has been stressful lately. I keep telling myself it could always be worse and it could but man... can I get a break already?

The first offer on the condo fell through. The buyer was not doing whatever they were supposed to be doing in a timely manner so they bailed. Luckily there was another buyer still interested in the condo so that was good. Now we will see what happens. Lots of stress concerning the condo like fixing things and real estate taxes and lots of other 'fun' things that I don't understand. It's so freaking frustrating!

Now my uncle, who has to sign all of the condo paperwork, is in the hospital! He had kidney cancer last year and had one of his kidneys removed. Now only 40% of his remaining kidney is working and he is losing lots of blood but they don't know where it's going. They are going to do tests to see if he has colon cancer. It's all very sad and stressful. My mind is spinning. What if he is unable to sign all of the condo related paperwork. Then what? Sometimes I just want to hide under a rock.

There are so many stressful things happening right now. Not only for me but for others I know. I don't know what it is about the holidays. They are supposed to be a joyful time but in reality the end of the year has not been very good for me. My mother died right after Thanksgiving. My grandpa died on New Years. I will never forget having to shop for a black dress for my mother's funeral and hearing holiday music playing in all of the stores and watching everyone be so happy. My mother had just died! Didn't anybody know this? Didn't anybody care? No, they did not.

Rob says I need to stop stressing. I need to just realize that these things are out of my control and just relax and see what happens. Sure... if only it was in my nature to do so! I'm trying.