I might be a step monster

I have a stepson... well sort of. He's not really my stepson. I have yet to meet him but might be doing so soon. He's my husband's son who isn't really his son. It's all so confusing. I wish I were more understanding but it's difficult to have my arms opened wide for my husband's ex girlfriend's kid. He wasn't ever married to her and he's not really his son but we call him his son and his not really son calls him dad. He has a real dad, my husband as a dad and a step dad. Lots of dads. Can't have too many I guess when your mom is a whore. Oops did I say that? Anyway, I realize that it's not said fake son's fault that his mom is a whore or that he has so many dads but jeez why is this now my mess to deal with? Oh, because I'm in love with his not really dad #2. Are you following along? I know it's confusing isn't it?

I might be meeting him soon. That is what is prompting the bitching. He is 17 and supposedly wants to come visit his dad, my husband, who is not really his dad. This is going to probably be weird and awkward. Just to hear someone call my husband dad will be strange. He (we) don't have any kids. Well, I guess we do. We have his ex girlfriend's kid. Oy Vey!

So he is most likely coming to visit soon. We are still waiting for the date and I'm starting to get nervous about it. What if he's a jerk? What do I do? How do I handle it if he says rude things to me or about me? We will have to pay for his food for a few days and take him to some fun places. Would his mother do this for my kid? Probably not. Be the better person I chant to myself when I really just want to say NO.

I hope we like each other so my heart can soften towards him and this resentment I have goes away. That would be really nice and make things much easier. My fingers are crossed.